Dear Luca, As Long as I’m Living

Dear Luca,

Today we celebrated your SECOND BIRTHDAY!! In so many ways it seems like decades have passed since I first held you in my arms. In others, it feels like I’ve just met you. A seasoned mother, a former stay-at-home mom, once said to me, “The days are long but the years are short.” I can relate, being a stay-at-home mom I’ve experienced days that seem to drag on. You get bored too and now that you can talk more you’ll beg me to “Go!” while pulling me towards the garage so we can depart on some new adventure. We’ve really become great friends, you and I.

One of your favorite books right now is Love You Forever. The mama sings a song to her son with the line “As long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.” It saddens me to think that someday, probably too soon, we’ll need to part. It’s ok, it has to be that way and it’s healthy, I know… It’s just that I’m really going to miss you being my little buddy. We cuddle so much, laugh, play, and your laugh is contagious, it makes my heart skip a beat. Your dad can make you laugh the best! You two light up my life. It’s so hard to imagine my daily life without you in it.

But then I think about… watching you read on your own, making friends and asking them over, you bringing me a mother’s day gift that you created, teaching you how to drive, meeting your first girlfriend, watching you graduate… All of the things that I can’t have with you as a two-year-old. I have to let go of some things but they will be replaced by so much more. You will be your own person and I can’t wait to get to know you.

I love you Luca. I am so thankful for you and for all the ways that you have helped me grow. You really do light-up our lives. I am so lucky to spend my days with you. Just know that as long as I’m living you’ll always have a special place in my heart as the baby you are today.

Happy Birthday Luca Bear.



Your Day of Birth, First Birthday and Second Birthday!



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