There’s been so much going on in the Snyder Family world that it’s hard to even know where to begin. I feel like first I should announce some BIG news and that is that we have FINALLY come to a decision in terms of our adoption. If you aren’t up to speed on where we were last time, let me recap:
-We were planning to adopt from China’s special needs program.
-We were matched with a little boy who was in terminal condition.
– Our hearts broke.
– We declined the match.
– Our hearts broke more.
– We began to discuss other options for adoption because we realized that adopting from an international special needs program might be more than we wanted to take on right now.
– The traditional Chinese adoption program takes 7 years. Most other international adoption programs require a lot of travel- too much with a toddler.
– FosAdopt wasn’t a good option because we have a 2 year old and want to maintain the birth order.
– We feel stuck.
– HALLELUJAH another option is presented to us!!
Enter, Adopt4Me. On a group page for Orphan Care on Facebook I saw an SOS. A small adoption facilitating company was looking for families to adopt children of mixed ethnicities. Apparently it is hard to find families who will do this (that’s a post for another time, but I want to say that I have no judgment for those families after all we have been through). We were totally on board right away.
Until… the cost. Yeah, it always comes down to money doesn’t it? The reality is, it’s about the same cost as the Chinese adoption, the difference is that we would need to come up with the money a LOT sooner. Yikes.
Well, after praying and discussing and researching, we have discovered that Adopt4Me really is the best fit for us. They are willing to work with our budget and we are going to try to raise funds as fast as we can. Luckily, we already have a good chunk of money that we have saved for the adoption so we only have to fundraise about $5,000.- $7,000.
Now, we are doing our best to get our home study done quickly and our house ready for a new little boo. Lord have mercy on me, I am nesting so bad. I am trying to calm my anxiety but I can hardly keep myself together. I feel myself fighting to ward-off the anxiety and to turn to God, but let me tell you it’s not easy. Especially when my house really is an actual construction zone.
That’s where I am at right now… in process. Both figuratively and literally.
I feel like a tornado inside. I’m nesting like a woman at the beginning in her third trimester only this is worse in some ways because I’m actually physically capable of doing most of my crazy Pinterest-inspired ideas. I need help people. I’m not kidding.
True to form, Jesus showed-up for me in a big way today….
When your mind spins with multiple plans, Peace may sometimes seem to be within your grasp; yet it always eludes you. … I did not design the human mind to figure out the future, that is beyond your capability. I crafted your mind for continual communication with Me. Bring Me all your needs, your hopes, and fears…. Turn from the path of planning to the path of Peace.
–Jesus Calling, Sarah Young. Psalm 37:5
Yeah. So that pretty much hit the nail on the head. I just have to pray that God can give me the strength and wisdom to surrender because I’ve been trying to do it on my own and it’s not working so well.
I’m curious, what do you do when your “planning” gets out of control? Suggestions and prayers are greatly appreciated!