Aw man, I still cringe over yesterday’s post that was meant to be satire but was taken seriously. I’m so thankful that someone said something so that I could clarify my intentions behind what I wrote! I’ll be honest, I’m super insecure about my crunchiness sometimes. I’m really afraid that I come across as an elitist and that is SO not what I want. I worry about what non-crunchy people think of me and I have fears that they think I am judging their lifestyle. So, I thought I’d make a joke about it by writing a fake letter to “Chewies” with all of the things that I fear they are thinking about me. That’s what insecure people like me do, joke when they’re actually serious. Heh. Oops.
In reality, I’m not super crunchy. When I chose to title my blog “Kinda Crunchy,” it was because I really am only kind of crunchy. The tag line “trying to find balance in mind, body and spirit” is truly my intention of this blog. I don’t really fit as a Crunchy or a Chewy because I’m kind of both. (I guess I could have named the site “Kinda Chewy” but that’s just weird.) You know, I may cloth diaper our baby, eat only free range eggs, and believe in placenta encapsulation but I also love shopping at Target, cleaning with Oxiclean, and chowing down on Girl Scout Cookies.
In my post yesterday, I joked about how I lay awake at night worrying about women in third world countries. Truthfully, I have anxiety issues. I do worry about stuff WAY too much. Documentaries are dangerous for me. One way that I keep myself emotionally healthy is by not obsessing over being 100% crunchy all of the time. Again, it’s my way of finding balance. That’s right, I eat Girl Scout Cookies for my health. Sounds crazy, but it’s good for me to go rogue and do something that a strict Crunchy person may call irresponsible. And let’s face it, sometimes being crunchy is just annoying. Like last week, I really wanted to get a manicure before we went to see Wicked. So I checked out this new salon that uses only organic products. You would not believe the cost of a manicure there! Groupon saved the day and I got a gel manicure and a pedicure for $35 somewhere else. Sometimes you gotta just put the crunch aside.
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I know that by writing a blog I run the risk of being misunderstood, offending people, or causing people to flat-out not like me. It’s a risk I’m willing to take because writing has been cathartic and the community I’ve gained has been encouraging. I hope that if any of you are considering writing a blog that you will go for it. Don’t worry about what people will think. I’ll admit, I totally FREAKED yesterday when I found-out that some people thought my post was serious, but you know what? It’s all ok. We cleared it up and if anything I feel more known now than I did before. I feel understood by those who matter. On that note, if I ever write anything that offends you, please say something. As a reader, you are part of my community and you matter to me. I look forward to continuing to share my journey with you and hearing your awesome feedback!
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