We are taking our son in to get his first round of vaccinations tomorrow. To say I’m dreading it is an understatement. My stomach is twisted and my throat is tight. Did my parents feel this heavy burden upon their shoulders as they paraded me into my first vaccination appointment? Of course not. I’m sure they weren’t excited about it but I doubt they had the same angst that my husband and I do. Caleb even said to me a couple of days ago, “I wish I didn’t know what I know.” He wishes he didn’t know about the horror stories some parents have lived after vaccinating their children, he wishes he didn’t know the frightening side-effects some vaccinations can have, and he wishes he didn’t know the funky ingredients in some of these vaccines either. There’s so much to be afraid of now. Not to mention the very illnesses we are trying to prevent. It would be so nice to just waltz into the pediatrician’s office believing that vaccines were good and illnesses were bad. Unfortunately, we are way too informed to live in that blissfully ignorant state.
We decided to do an alternative vaccination schedule. It’s what people do when they’re too chicken to not vaccinate and too paranoid to vaccinate as advised. We’re doing it in hopes that it will minimize any potential risks associated with infants being exposed to multiple inoculations at once. I feel comfortable with it I guess. I, and many other parents I’ve spoken with, feel that the “Vaccine Debate” is a lose-lose situation. Either you watch your kid get injected with potentially harmful substances or you nervously wait out every year of their childhood hoping they don’t get exposed to an illness you could have prevented. We feel that the alternative schedule as proposed by Dr. Bob Sears is the best middle-ground we can find.
Vaccinations are just the tip of the ice burg in this age of over-information. Everything from sleeping to spit-up has a plethora of expert advice and commentary. It’s quite overwhelming. Sometimes I wonder if our kids have as many problems as we think they do or if we create problems because of our desire to integrate too much information. Would my kid be ok if we went with the AAP’s recommended vaccination schedule? Probably. Will my kid be ok if he doesn’t get his morning nap? Affirmative (it actually happened today and he just took a longer afternoon nap). It’s all good. Maybe we as parents need to smoke a figurative joint and chill out. More importantly, maybe all of these “experts” need to stop over-analyzing childrens’ behavior and over-capitalizing on parents’ anxiety. Aaannd…. I’m taking a deep breath now.
I’ll end my rant with this: I admit that I’m feeling very sensitive and emotional about the fact that my little guy is about to be shot-up with crap that has been accused of causing irreparable damage to other children. I’m bitter that I’ve been exposed to information that has stolen the luxury of ignorance from me. I’m exhausted and overwhelmed from trying to sift through all of the available information in an attempt to make the “right” decision. More than anything, I want to scream because I can’t control what happens to my kid, I just can’t. And that sucks. so. bad. All I know to do is ensure our little one will be covered in prayer before this appointment. If you’re the praying type, will you please offer up a little prayer for us? Much appreciated!
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